“Apologize” – Lou Barlow + Missingmen
(Words/music: Lou Barlow, available on Sentridoh III, Merge Records (Digital) 2010)
“Time’s been known to flicker / drag uneven, fly” is one of my favorite opening lines from recent memory particularly for the image it creates. The idea of time passing in uneven bursts the way candlelight flares and recedes feels both beautiful and accurate. This arrangement of the song (originally on Barlow’s 2009 record Goodnight Unknown) parallels this fluidity in the musical arrangement. The Missingmen, on loan from Mike Watt, encase Barlow’s voice with watery distortion and subtly swirling guitar effects. Even the song’s arrangement itself – quieter and looser verses followed by louder, tighter sections – somewhat flickers itself.
“Flicker” is an interesting way to describe the song’s narrator too. He seems to alternate between moments of illumination and moments in darkness. It’s an interesting and very familiar conflict for many of us who moments of clarity interspersed by pockets of confusions and don’t know how we moved from one to the other. Ultimately, it’s a fight where temporary victories are the best, and the narrator seems to understand this. The only thing that’s certain is his command, whether to himself or just as general advice, not to apologize for it. Even if we’d want our lives illuminated by floodlights at times, isn’t there a degree of beauty and romance to the flicker of candlelight? If so, the ups and downs come with the territory.
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